Quiet battle

I put on a brave face or mask everyday. I am autistic, but I decided not to declare it. Only 3 health professionals know. I interact with lots of people and push myself. I have to constantly decode everything based on social rules (sometimes I misunderstand). Sometimes there is too much sensory overload like too much noise over prolonged time, which is difficult for me. It is exhausting. At the end of the day, I like to spend 2 hours alone with no sensory overload. Family also causes sensory overload. They talk too much and too much auditory overload. Social interaction can be very stressful for me. I cannot give up. I take care of my family despite being autistic. So giving up is not an option. I do not let it show. I try to be just like any other person. I do not want to be put in any box. I am just as capable as any other person. I work instead of being on disability. Most people think that Autistic means mentally low IQ. I get put in that box. I am not low IQ.

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anonymous Other October 28, 2025 at 9:55 pm 0 0