no love life

for anyone who has never dated and never been liked by anyone in a romantic manner, this rant is for you. im 18 and all my life I’ve NEVER been in a relationship. It’s against my religion to date but at the same time I see kids who r from the same religion as me who r my age who easily date. I wish religion was what was holding me back but the truth is it might just be me. No guy has EVER liked me, like ever. And anytime I do have a crush, I simply end up getting rejected or acting so weird and crazy that they don’t talk to me. But honestly I’ve never even spoken to a boy in any romantic way because I know my worth in their eyes, I know I’m not some hot commodity or anything, and there’s nothing special to me so why would they ever want me. I’ve read all these romance books my whole life waiting for something remotely special to happen in ny love life but it’s just never happened. what hurts the most is that I see others around me blossoming and having their first loves while I just sit there and spectate. I constantly feel like a side character in my own life and it hurts so bad. I’m starting college soon and I’m really hoping I branch out and finally figure out how to talk to guys because I don’t know how much longer I can keep living like this. I feel like I was made for love, but how can I keep living if I can’t find any? I feel worse than any hopeless romantic, because at least their romantic somehow. I’m just a hopeless fool. I’m not special to anyone. I have no one to tell my worries to. I have no one to confide in. I have no one to hold me until I’m better. I have no one to show me affection of any sort. and I have no one who loves me on that level. if ur reading this and you’ve at least had a talking stage, or someone has actually liked u back, or guys actually take somewhat of an interest in u, you’ll never know how I feel. It doesn’t matter if your a second choice because some of us aren’t even choices at all, we’re not even in the realm of possibility. And my worst fear is that one day I will find love, but it amounts to nothing I hoped for, like love out of necessity. honestly I just feel alone. Of course I have my mom who I can tell anything to but she thinks I have no interest in guys or love. She thinks her love for me is enough, which of course it is but the love you receive from a partner is just a different level of love, something I wish I could simply get a taste of.

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anonymous Relationships August 05, 2025 at 11:18 pm 2 0