nerve pain sucks

there is nothing in this world i hate the way i hate my nerve pain. i have this lovely constant burning from just below the scar on my knee to about the middle of my shin. i have a limp. i have joint pain. i need a compression sleeve and some sort of oil for my scar and some sort of numbing cream and eight hours of sleep (i’ll get one tonight if i’m lucky) and nobody seems to get it that my WHOLE FUCKING LIFE revolves around how much pain i can tolerate. no i can’t go out, i’m too busy laying in bed shaking and crying because i feel like someone doused my leg in acid! no i can’t stay up super late talking, i need sleep or the pain gets worse! look at me i can’t do ANYTHING because of a stupid accident! i wrecked my bike years ago (YEARS. WHOLE ASS YEARS.) so why is it still affecting me? if it’s not the pain keeping me up it’s the memories from that accident. or the hospital. do you fucking know how many times they tore me open? over and over, pushing me past my limits in the name of “rehabilitation”. i HATE what happened. i hate how it left me i hate myself i hate everything. i wish they didn’t save me. i wish they let me fucking rot. please god put me out of my misery i can’t take it anymore.

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anonymous Body September 02, 2025 at 4:08 am 0 0