my future

I'll remain alone because the singles market is shit. I'm in my 30s and have believed for years that I'll remain alone, and nothing is really changing that. There isn't any way for people my age to meet anyone, unless it's through dating apps which don't work.

Singles events are all full of 40+ people are who laughably pathetic. The last one I went to this guy was talking his friend, a friend who actually looked good mind you, and went on about his mother. I knew right then why he was friendzoned. No one my age is ever at these events and I'm brushed off like I'm a kid.

As far as my life goes, it's all easier than it ever was when I was a "kid." I didn't have a childhood, and seriously have less stress and responsibiliy now than I did in those days. I grew up poor white trash in the middle of nowhere. A lot of my life was like Shameless, minus the sex.

Against all odds I got away from that area, and never did fall into drugs, booze, or anything. I'm nothing like my relatives and never were. So, I have no one to compare myself to, when almost all of them had kids young and then spent the rest of their days sitting around bitter about a world that they thought was going to kiss their ass.

I don't work a million dollar job, but live within my means and save money. By the time I'm in my 50s I'll have a good amount built up. I started doing a 401K this year, and won't cash it out for stupid shit like my dad did with his. I'll be doing better financially than him when I'm at that age (40ish). I already am, because I don't burn every cent I have on magic beans AKA porn, whisky, and lottery tickets.

I live a quiet life. I'll go to singles shit that sucks and usually feel worse for doing so. My interests are solitary. I'm basically an old man in a "young" person's body. On occasion I buy stupid shit I could never afford in my past, lately it's been metal lunchboxes. I go on occasional vacations too and have one planned. None of this was ever supposed to be a reality for me, as boring as it may be.

I'm grateful and don't really see it changing. By the time I'm in my 50s and 60s if I live that long, I'll have been to Disney World probably 10 times. Will have had a few decades of this lifestyle under my belt which isn't bad. The only thing lacking would be what currently is, which is just a human connection.

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anonymous Relationships November 05, 2026 at 8:55 am 0 1