Musical Instrument Rant

I'm a highschool student, and am going on a term long holiday because my dad is going on long service leave, and I can't bring my trumpet. Sounds great, but I'm in 3 ensembles for trumpet - Jazz Band, Brass Ensemble and Concert Band. I don't take my trumpet home to practice a bunch, I'm pretty good at trumpet, but I did mention to my mum that I was worried about losing my place in thiese bands, as they are audition entry type things. I'm really upset about this and this is the first time I'm mentioning this to her, and she says 'Well you never practice so it should be fine'. Just clarifying, I have practices 4 times a week and sometimes during extra lunches and recceses. It's PMO that everyone, and I mean EVERYONE in my family makes these jokes. I'm annoyed, so I tell her, 'I do play every week multiple times, so it's different to not playing for 11 weeks'. She and I argue slightly for a bit longer and she says 'Stop taking these jokes so personally'.

.....If your going to just say that, might as well just stop saying 'Good job' at RECORDINGS of my performances when you don't EVER come to my concerts. And if I mention it, I also feel like I'm seeking attention because of their responses. They can't come because my siblings have gymnastics, but I have 2 parents and a grabndmother who lives with us who can DRIVE. She can take my sister and my dad could at least come and watch, or my mum and my dad could take my brother. I don't want to be a trouble or a pain, so I just say it's fine, but in reality it's like they don't even care and after I got first in a City Championships, my dad says 'Trumpet must be really easy if you can get first when you never practice'. No congratulations or good job, that's after.

And these happen pretty often, and I'm always annoyed. No one acknowledging any work I've done. My mum acts so tired after I said, 'You always say this' after she says it's fine. She says stuff like 'I took breaks too' or 'I'm sure you won't not make it into the band next year'. She doesn't try to udnerstandf and acts so tired when I just say back 'WIth trumpet, my facial muscles might weaken and my ombrusche might be bad'. Like, if you want me to tell you what I feel, maybe don't react like it burdens you. Pick a side.

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Abigail Home June 22, 2025 at 6:07 am 0 0