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Me and my fucking weight. Pt. 2

Me and my fucking weight. Pt. 2

Everything in my life right now is shit. Now, I know a lot of people have it worse, like debtors and taxpayers, but I'm only a teenager. I'll probably look at this in 5 years and think "Oh, I was such an emo edgy bastard." It's true. It's summer. And I've done nothing. I used to have friends, but now I have one and I feel like she'll leave me because I don't wanna take her calls, I don't want to take anyone's calls, and I haven't been. I haven't been texting her or anyone either. Which everyone has a problem with. My aunts and uncles complain about it after my mom makes me call them to apologise. It's so draining to talk to people even though I basically sleep all day. My mother even told me that if she were in an emergency, I wouldn't even be 1 out of the first 20 calls she'd make. I get where she's coming from, but that really hurt. Eventually, out of guilt, I call my friend, but it's so draining. Not that I don't like her, I do, but I don't wanna wake up at 10 in the morning to call her and talk about nothing. Just awkward silence. I've been missing my online classes too, only been to two this month. My mom says I always try to take the easiest way out of life, like career paths and stuff, but even the easy stuff she's talking about is hard. If only I could lose weight again. All my problems would be solved. I would like myself, other people might like me, I'd talk to more people, but I can only dream. Ever since I let myself go(last year), my life has been deteriorating. I was 52kg last year, now I'm 69kg. fucking 69. It's so embarrassing. I used to weigh myself after every meal, but now I'm too scared to look at my scale. All I do is eat. I used to be okay, surviving, but now I'm just an ugly, fat, lazy pig. My mom tells me to do something with my life. I'm so pathetic. I just want to die. If I were a different person and someone told me about someone like me, I would say, "I'd kill myself." There is no use in living. I don't want to work out, I feel too ashamed to, like it's mocking me. I don't want to study. I don't want kids. (not that someone would even like me anyway.) I'm filthy, disgusting and ugly. I have no hobbies, no good traits. I should really end up on the side of a highway. I was born nerfed. Black, fat, and ugly. I wasn't born with any gifts, I'm not smart, creative, or sporty. I've never excelled in anything. Have you ever stood next to someone average and realised how bad you look? How I wish to be born a blonde, straight-haired, blue-eyed girl who was actually likeable. I'm going back to school in August just to get bullied again. My one friend barely even goes to school so I'm gonna be alone again. Water and food being thrown at me, being "the chopped girl" people telling me their friends like me. God made me so people could look at themselves and say, "Well, at least I'm not like her," or "I'm happy I'm not her."
anonymous Body July 23, 2025 at 7:24 pm 0
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