is this abuse?? or am I overthinking

im going to start off with the fact that im a teen not a kid or a middle aged person just a teen. so obviously there's some sort of stereotypes against teens like "Oh they're so rebellious" "They think they are as mature as adults" "They are so ungrateful" yeah i used to think that too when I was a kid but now that im a teen im starting to get those type of comments and I can definitely say that it's not actually our fault half the time. like whenever i do talk to my parents about anything at all or my interests they reply with "ok" or just talk over me or ignore me. At first it like hurt, but now it's just bearable you know. And parents still ask "Why won't my kid talk to me?" Because you genuinely don't give most of us time to talk to you. Maybe like, I did something to deserve it idk or maybe im just overthinking it but my parents always disregard me and favour my younger TEEN sibling. It's like i can't have any sort of privacy because i could be vaping or having sex as they say teenagers do. I literally read books during my free time. not hating against people who vape it's your choice but just because others around my age do it doesn't mean I would. My parents even ignored me for a whole week because i made them angry once. Like no food. I had to learn to cook food on my own. I was 7. I just hate when every little thing I do gets judged. Like when i put concealer or lip tint they think im putting on heavy makeup and I'm trying to impress guys. No i just think im really fucking ugly and need a clear skin to look better. I'm stupid and ugly, and since i struggle with focus I might as well try to fix the ugly part right? When people compliment me I just think "yeah it's because I have makeup on half the time." My parents made me think I was ugly for having messed up skin. And now i just don't talk as much because whenever I talk they ignore me or say i talk too much. I even remember when I was around 10 I used to cry myself to sleep because everyone thought insomnia couldn't happen to a lying kid. I once got sick and couldn't tell anyone because they would say that I was faking it because yk "kids these days always on their phone." so i just sat in the bathroom and waited to vomit for an hour with nobody to check up on me at all. I was 10. I even opened up and told them about my problems with a friend and they just told me I was in the wrong for not having enough pocket money to hang out with them. I really want to tell someone trusted but none of the adults around me make me feel comfortable and happy. Maybe it's because my own parents failed me so it makes it hard for me to trust other adults you know? but I just thought that maybe I was overthinking and making a big fool out of myself so I just didn't. And what if it's a false case because sometimes they're actually kind to me like recently they bought me nuggets and a protein bar. It made me kind of happy. Maybe I'm asking for too much and it's just their version of tough love. Maybe im just a stupid teen that wants to be loved like a normal parent would to their kid. Is neglect abuse or am i the stupid? And is this even counted as abuse?

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