interactions

I don’t like being called ma’am. Especially by girls my age. It makes me feel like the green nauseous emoji. I do live in a small town in the south so that’s seen as polite. I’m Latina so I never learned to use that word and will still call old ladies miss bc I HATE the word ma’am lol. Idc if it’s impolite to say miss. You know why? Because I’m the sweetest person to everybody. I am so fucking nice and try my best to have an open heart and spread love into the universe so we can lift out of this cursed ass paradigm of fear and hatred towards one another. But god every interaction today with people has slowly drained my energy. The girl who acts weird around me even though I try to smile and greet her and even complimented her when I first met her acted SO weird and said thank you ma’am when I held the door open for her. And this is coming from a weird person, but I’m weird and have accepted it and try to delight others and love my weirdness. I remember her from school vaguely she was a few grades above me and seemed to be ok but now she walks fast and avoids eye contact and makes stressed out ugly faces when I see her (or she sees me). Anyway I know that being called ma’am is a trigger for me and I have no idea what her life is like and she doesn’t know me at all so it’s not that deep. And shout out to my cousin who works in the same building that has a gorgeous smile and smiled at me, the librarian who is slowly sharing more about her life with me, and the random citizen who told me I was doing a good job at work <3 Can’t forget the good interactions either. But then I was in cvs, I come out someone says hi to me. I thought it was a granny sitting there so I turn and greet her with a smile but it’s a dude. He asks me my name and I ask him his even though at this point I see he’s just hitting on me. as I’m walking to my car and then says “are you single ? come here a minute” as IF IM NHOING TO DROP EVERYTHING IM DOING IN MY DAY TO GO WALK TO YOU. I said no and kept walking to my car. THEN HE GOT UP AND STARTED WALKING TOWARDS MY CAR. I usually take my time and connect my Bluetooth to jam to tunes but I said nah and peeled out as quick as I could bc the mothafucka was gaining on me quick. YIKES!!! second creepy ass encounter of the month. First one was a guy fully taking a picture of me in the food lion parking lot. I have never felt the need to carry pepper spray but these guys are getting bolder for some god forsaken reason. By the time I went grocery shopping I feel like I’m just on edge with people and feel like these two girls in the parking lot are judging me for my outfit. Then I pay for my stuff and the cashier is rude to me, I understand it’s a shitty job that doesn’t pay well but I’m tired of absorbing peoples weird energy. I feel like I need an evil eye necklace or something. I dunno. I understand it’s just my limited thinking and way of seeing that colors my perspective but I just wanted to write this all down and let it go so I can move on and find peace lol.

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sue Other September 14, 2026 at 5:59 pm 0 0