I wish I'd hear from my friends.

I always try to reach out to them. But i ened up saying the wrong things and then they just ghost me for several days.

I hate this feeling. Its worse than a punishment. Its just forced loneliness and i cant stand it.

Im recently injured and on painkillers half the time so i cant even walk around too much. I still work full time even with a bad back. And still go out of my way to try and message them but they just dont care about me the same way.

How can they just use me and put me away like this???
How can they not care that im in pain and im depressed and i just want company?
I would drive hours down to see any one of them if they needed me.
But they wont even write a single text these past couple days.

I try not to text people more than 3 times before waiting for them to text back so i dont seem needy. But its been literal days of being confined to a bed and none have texted me back.

I feel like the worst most hated person in the world. Who else could say that the people they cherish most in the world dont even care about them? They would have to be a terrible person. Right?

Like if that many people dont care then the problem has to be me at that point.
Im the only common factor.

I cant take this much longer.

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anonymous Friends December 14, 2025 at 1:26 pm 0 0