I want to die

Hi guys, I'll hide by the name "Kyler" Currently 13 years old female. Despite being extremely young, I've attempted multiples times o commit suicide. I'm of a teacher and a principal. You know how it goes, everyone expects you to be smart, kind, well mannered. It's hard. I cry over the smallest things. Whether I didn't get accepted in the finals of a quiz we or I got a low score on a test which resulted into me self harming. I've done stupid things in the past. Like extremely dumb things. Right now, my problem is my father blaming me for "stealing" his money because 5k pesos is missing from his bag and I have 2k inside my wallet. I earn money by doing essays for other students (without AI) because they ai check each and every essay submitted. Sure, I've done dumb things such as smoking. (Yes, smoking. At the age of 10 I started because I was so pressured to the point that if I made a mistake, I would self harm.) Drinking Alcohol. And I hate to admit it but stealing from them. The reason? I wanted a different life. And I got that feeling when I was with my old friends. I knew they used me but they were all I had. Yet I know this doesn't excuse my behaviour. It was so so wrong of me to steal but this time, I didn't take the 5k. Theax I have stolen was 400 PHP and whenever I do it, I feel so guilty that I wouldn't eat to save money and put the exact amount inside their wallet again or in their clothes. Okay, back to the topic. So earlier, my father saw the 2k PHP inside my wallet and started yelling at me inside his office, calling me a disgusting burglar. Im currently in my mother's car at the back seat typing this trying not to cry. I just want to die. I think I might commit tonight.

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Kyler Home October 14, 2025 at 6:24 am 0 0