I remembered something I probably won t regret

Hi, I'm that guy who made the rants about me being evil and not regretting my hate, and the truth that no human can forgive themself and those who forgive others are weak. I still believe that.

I remembered a sin I commited, one I will not regret, and I want to let it out, so you people know there are people like me out there who are as bitter as you are, making you happy inside. So let me confess something I loved doing, something I will hopefully never regret and won't blame myself for doing because of the immature people who bullied me, as of which I now think watch me every where I go.

I went on Wikipedia, looked on the Jack the Ripper page, on there is a picture of Mary Jane Kelly, dead. Her mangled face, the blood everywhere, the detached limbs. I felt dread looking at it at, my stomach sank, I felt horror... and I smiled. I loved it! The mangled body, the anger let out upon this weakling, it made me happy when I had a bad day! I was filled with joy, hatred towards the world who'd wronged me, and comfort from this killer. Someone who we know little of, yet I can relate to, because I know someone wrong him. I felt feared by God, feared by the world, I felt independent and strong.

I know all of you will dislike this thing, I don't even know why that feature is on here considering some people will probably feel sadder from that, but for me I love it! I feel feared, and when the likes come in I feel supported, and when the angry comments swarm in like flies, I rot from joy. I know I am superior to humans, because all of you wrong each other, make every one cry, feel pain, so let me support the people with pains, scars and show them they aren't alone.

I don't do this anymore though, I've been taking medication after taking a knife to school, so please don't do this. I just wanted to feel feared again, feel that adrenaline, feel the devil flow through my blood. So please, know you aren't alone. Please don't end up like me, but know that I am a bit like you, wanting to be noticed, feared, hated, and wanting your enemies to die.

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anonymous Other February 05, 2024 at 2:24 pm 0 0