i'm such a loser

I feel very behind in my life tbh. Before the pandemic, I was so ready to embrace becoming an adult by becoming more social (mind you I am very introverted). However, it all turned to shit once the pandemic happened. I just became an extreme homebody who did not want to leave the house at all. Now, I'm a fresh graduate that still doesn't have her shit together. I've been trying to apply for jobs but so far it's all scams and rejects (lmao I got scammed and lost a bunch of my money like the dumbass I am). I don't really have that much friends besides the ones I made online. Nothing wrong with my online friends, I just wish I had more friends I could actually meet up with. I don't have that much experience with relationships either. My first and only relationship so far was cut short because I was unhappy and decided to immediately give up on it when deep down I knew we could still maybe work it out if I just communicated more. Or maybe I was selfish because I still wanted to explore my sexuality more. Whatever. Nowadays I just feel like a total fucking failure and I don't really know what my purpose in life is anymore. Lowkey wish I could just disappear but ya know that's not how life really works. I can't always be on autopilot or whatever. But it always feels like everything I try to do ends up failing. I hate it. I don't know how much misery I need to experience before I experience something good for once in my life again. Fuck this shit. If you're experiencing something similar as I am, just know you're not alone in this. I'm also going through the exact same shit bruh lmao sucks fr.

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anonymous Other September 23, 2025 at 4:20 pm 0 0