I'm so stupid

So i thought that one of my friends had a crush on me. Id find her just looking at me all the time. And she all of a sudden started getting like super excited when i saw her. And she would always want to hold my hands if i was really cold which was sweet cause omg did she help warm my hands up. For context we have known eachother for a few years and only reacently has there been a small change in how she acts around me. So we were hanging out today and stopped at a place to visit another friend of ours and on the way there i made a joke about her having a crush on the other friend cause i knew she has been a little more clingy to her and she admited it to be true and i was like shocked. And in one way i was a little relieved cause im not really bi and thought it was weird that i thought she had a crush on me cause im not pretty or attractive and on the bigger side so i just knew someone like her wouldnt like me. The other side of me felt sad cause i think there was a sliver of my brain that wanted a pretty girl to think of me that way cause it would have been nice to be someones crush for once. Its so selfish saying it that way and i really dont want to sound that way. And ik ill probably get a hate comment saying that if i wasnt fat i wouldnt have a problem. I know that you dont have to tell me what ive known my whole life. Stfu. But idk just needed to put it in words somehow cause do i think she is cute yea. Would i date her idk ive never wsnted to date a girl before. Do i think her and our friend would be cute together yes cause their dynamic is adorable.

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anonymous Friends January 07, 2025 at 11:36 pm 0 0