I'm so grateful for my boyfriend

This is my first time in a relationship, and it's a serious one. I was always afraid to date someone, especially in today's modern time. Everyone either made it seem like it was the best thing on the earth, or saying "you'd wish you stayed single". Don't get me started on those "relationship theory's". But even without any of social media ruining romance, I was still afraid of it. My mental health isn't perfect, my family isn't the most normal or best example of romance, and I consider myself a 6/10 even on a good day.

But then came my first current, and forever boyfriend.

From the moment we met, he saw me. Not the person who'd force a smile, act happy, and the facade. He saw me, anxious for speaking out of line, scared to talk about herself without feeling guilty afterwards, and a crybaby. Even when he confessed to me, I was surprised. I accepted, just putting myself out there while knowing the risks. I'm so happy I did. Ever since then, day by day, he helps me just by being there. Although he's a rage baiting little tease, I'd never want that to change even if he manages to piss me off so bad I'm swearing like an old man.

He's so perfect it brings me to tears. He's so kind, so gentle to my wounded heart. There's so many yet not enough words to ever explain how he makes me feel.

There's times where my brain puts the worst in my mind, making me think of the what if's. I know he'd never do such things, so then I'd be so mad at myself for thinking like that. I unintentionally push him away those days, and I apologize and doing my best to explain when that happens, and he always listens. Even after when I'm having those day's when I'm not my usual talkative self, he notices and offers to lend an ear to listen to my worries. But then I hate to be a bother. Who would want a girlfriend who's sad majority of the time? Even when I'm thinking that he's mad at me, he never is. Even when there's day where I think that he'd deserve someone better, he reminds me that I'm his most beautiful girl in the world and he's never want to let go on me, mess and all.

I hope, no, I will make this relationship, this teenage romance, into us getting married. I don't want any other human being beside me that isn't him. If its not his matching wedding ring on my right hand, I don't want it. All I want, and all I ever need is him beside me.

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anonymous Relationships June 01, 2026 at 1:54 am 1 0