I'm cooked. (in a yuri way)

(willing to answer questions too) I'm a girl and I used to have feelings for this one guy last year during our school's production, so let's call him apricot. So I've been friends with him for maybe a year now, and I used to have feelings for him. We'll get back to him. I told some of my friends this including one of my best friends whom we'll call lemon. Lemon is important because we've known each other since we were kids, but became friends beginning of high school. I often confuse friendship for feelings, and that's what happened with lemon because I still like her somewhat, and it's confusing me because it's not a crush, but there's feelings. Which brings us back to apricot, who I have reoccuring feelings for, and I've genuinely developped a full crush on. The same people know including lemon, who's been giving me mixed signals lately, not sure why. I could be overthinking it though since lemon is a confusing person. This is where the real problem kind of mixes in because I defenitly have a crush on apricot, but it's his last year. So I figured I'd get a bit closer in terms of being friends with him before dropping the bombshell that I like him, which is what I was planning on doing until I thought about how badly I want lemon deep down. She's been with me through so much and still continues to, she's weird but I love her, and that's the problem. I'm not supposed to love her AND some other guy, yet I keep mistaking my feelings for people knowing I won't ever have a shot in the first place. I don't really know what to, so I think I'll just keep it to myself for the time being. I'm always talking about apricot to my other friend, and she supports my delusions, but I've never told anyone about lemon, and sometimes I feel like I've done something wrong whenever I look at her and feel what I've been feeling. Yet I can't really move on from either of them. I keep eating apricots when I forget how much I love lemons.

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anonymous Crushes March 23, 2026 at 10:09 pm 0 0