i dont feel like youre even my "bsf"

why are you always so miserable towards me?? why are you treating me horrible even tho you repost abt ppl treating you that way?? why do you point out my tiktok acc and pick on me for it??

im gonna be brutally honest, you are genuinely so despicable. you started causing a whole entire scene in the gym over me apparently "hitting ur leg" even tho u CLEARLY heard me apologize. i didnt even intend to hurt u, and since that day, it felt like u definitely hated me. on that night u called me a DONKEY and told me that "the others were right abt me being useless and r*tarded" and since that day, i've been going to school AFRAID abt the fact my classmates hated me all the way until the last day of school. this all basically started digging an entire rabbit hole.

imagine telling ur OWN bsf that theyre "embarrassing themself", and "ruining everything" instead of actually giving them hope to keep going like what an ACTUAL best friend should do. (this happened at a separate day at a school track event). u treated me like sht that day to the point when i had to go home for the rest of the day CRYING and constantly hating on myself (oh and one reminder: i have a LOW self esteem for a long time now). and u treated me like sht that day, and fast forward to a time when you told me that i should ACTUALLY kms. and yes YOU heard me, you told me that i should >>ACTUALLY<< kms and told me all these other horrific things bc ur eye was burning.

i've always did my best to support and comfort you whenever u opened up to me abt ur life problems, but since u made me feel horrible on all those days, i felt SCARED to even talk to you first bc of what happened on those days. i could barely have a non-awkward conversation to you even tho i tried to, bc of all the flooded words of urs flowing in my mind.

and if u think that i'm drifting away from you, do consider it a fact. you didnt even properly apologize to me ONLY abt the track event, and NOT on the other times; and i pretended it was all "ok" when it WASNT!!!! i will never EVER forget the way u treated me, i have a low self esteem, and on those days u made it go EVEN LOWER!!! how do you feel abt that??

there is no way u could EVER perfectly sugarcoat the way u treated me that time. you need to take these words accountable and not js "throw them away" like scrap paper after saying youre "sorry". i will NEVER forget the way u treated me for such a long time.

fast forward to the time when u told me "name smt youre good at besides editing on tiktok" which ALSO made me feel like i was good for nothing. if u wanna go ahead and tell me otherwise, think abt it. u said "besides EDITING ON TIKTOK" which was one thing. luckily i was able to stand up for myself and say more than just something.

i remember the times when u told me all these rude things and after js look at my face and wait for my response. and when i told u i was emotionally sensitive, you basically misunderstood me and looked at me as a "sensitive crybaby" person. it's like u expected me to start crying in front of u and go tell a teacher or smt. "uhh are u gonna respond or what?" did i even LOOK like i want to respond?? u literally treated me horrible so many times to the point that was practically deteriorating my MENTAL HEALTH. keep in mind u repost abt wishing u weren't misunderstood.

i seriously cannot believe the fact that u repost abt ppl making u feel like sht when u CLEARLY did the same to me!!! why did u think it was 100% valid to treat me like this without thinking?? why ur own bsf?? why the one whose put so much towards our friendship and never put u down???

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a- lisa Friends August 06, 2024 at 12:23 pm 1 2