Closure

"What closure do you want though?"

What closure do I want? I want the closure you never gave me. You broke up with me at 2 AM on a school night. You proceeded to ignore me for several weeks without explaining, besides you saying it was not my fault, but it was yours. You were the same man whom I gave my only two years of my boarding school years to. We both know how important this school was to me. Yet you swept me up in my first semester at this school as my senior. I dedicated my life to you even after you went to college. You dated me for nearly a year and four months, then you proceeded to abandon me just like that. What happened to the guy who said he was going to marry me? Why the hell did you run when I just mentioned one problem I was having with being long-distance? Why did you immediately suggest friends with benefits? Why did you get so pissed when I blocked you because you broke up with me? You wanted to end things, so doesn't that mean I can block you? The last conversation we ever had was you saying you knew you didn't love me for the past four months. That you only stuck around because you thought I would change. You never bothered to bring up any issues in the past, and you expected me to change. Yet this change you wanted was for me not to be depressed and anxious. You didn't want to admit that you were dating a mentally ill girl. Even though you know that I am currently attending one of the most prestigious high schools in the country. So I'm sorry I apply myself in everything I do at this school. I am sorry, I am riddled with depression and anxiety. You said you didn't feel loved by me, as if I didn't go see you every two weeks and spend hundreds of dollars to see you. You never came to see me once. You took my virginity during those four months. Did you just want to be able to say to your stupid college friends that you slept with a girl before? Well, guess what, you sucked at sex anyway. You stopped talking to me and left me to figure out the pieces by myself. Why the hell would I not want closure?

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anonymous Relationships April 23, 2026 at 10:56 pm 0 0