i cannot stand anybody.

I'm sick of everybody, i dont understand why either.
Everybody hates me because i hate them, I never tell them that but they all seem to know
I must be a terrible person, i block everybody who likes me even a bit, i genuinally hate being liked
i hate attention, this girl kept flirting with me saying she liked how much of a loser i am. That hurt.
she blocked me because im too awkward, i have no idea how to talk to people so i just come off as a jerk or im uncomfortable. I have 0 hobbies, friends, or anything going on in my life everything i talk about to people is circumstantual i have nothing to me, im just a guy. A guy with 0 friends, 0 people in his life, 0 hobbies, 0 things interesting about me. And whats worst of all, when people truely like me, or act like it, its typically because of my money, im so awkward i give people my money to get them to like me. I have this friend, hes just like me, i cannot stand him anymore, he acts like he likes me but i know deep down inside he only cares about my money, its ridiculous, i gave him stuff a few times and suddenly thats all im good for, it feels like hes copying me when he responds to my problems, i get im awkward when he talks about his but i try to care, im a terrible responder, worst of all, i feel nothing for people i should care about, but it seems like he doesnt even try when i say stuff, i feel as if im growing distant from everybody, and its not even my fault, i really do hate everybody. I must be selfish and heartless the only thing i care about even when i hate when its all people care about in me, is looks, and money. If u dont have that then u are of no use to me. Sometimes i really wish i never got "help" for my problems, all it got me was disorders, and made things worse, i dont want to be treated like a child anymore. Its so stupid. Oh and when i do make friends they always only talk about their other friends, it hurts because i have none to talk about, everybody always wants more out of me.

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Zhiraa Friends December 23, 2025 at 12:12 am 1 0