i can never forgive my mother

so my mom is an abuser physically and emotionally. she’s a narcissistic piece of garbage that began her habits as soon as my sister and i were old enough to stop being cute toddlers. i’ve lost my childhood and after living with her by myself for 3 years she broke wooden spoons while smacking me with them, bruised me, bruised my sister, hit my dad then divorced him claiming it was his fault, she’s a piece of shit. she’s had a rough childhood but it’s no excuse for taking your anger and frustrations out on people you supposedly love. today at work a mom started screaming at her children and all those memories rushed back and i just stood there and watched her do it. after that happened i felt so absolutely disgusted with myself for not doing anything. i felt angry at my mother for being just like that. and i felt physically sick to my stomach because of the whole situation. my sister has made nice with my mom but i haven’t because my issues with her were more recent and more severe than my sister had to deal with because i lived along with my mother so it was all focused on me for 3 years. my sister keeps telling me i need to have a heart to heart with my mother and have a redemption type of thing happen and after this mother at my workplace had her outburst it made me think about how disgusted i am with people like that and how i genuinely don’t want her in my life at all. i think im done with her for good and i don’t know if i can change these thoughts in this lifetime.

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anonymous Home November 10, 2024 at 4:50 pm 0 0