I am mad and will not do anything

You ever feel so mad, trapped, sad, frustrated, and stupid that you would prefer not to exist? Well that's the fun state I've been living in. Swapping between sobbing/screaming to getting so mad that I feel like I am vibrating. I feel like my life is stuck on pause and I am beating at the play button. One thing in particular is the reason for my qualms and it makes me so mad I want to throw up on them. Or kill myself on their doorstep so that they can tell that they actually hurt me. How childish and pathetic is that? To where I want to communicate something to someone so badly (in a way I think their dull brain can comprehend) that I want my corpse to be the fucking note. I have a good life and I will not be killing myself, so that's why I am extra frustrated that I am even having thoughts like this. It makes me even MORE ANGRY that I hate something enough to let it control me like this. I am a child, crying and stomping on the street corner... and does my crying and tantrum-ing do anything? OFC NOT!!!! BECAUSE I AM A GROWN FUCKING ADULT!!!!! It's like, come on. Grow up. This sucks and you wish you were never born, but hey, genuinely who doesn't feel like that every once and awhile. Live to spite the sadistic fuck.

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Mad Man Other July 27, 2026 at 10:18 am 0 1