I am in this deep

Today was at my desk at work, in my own thoughts, and my coworker asked me if everything was ok. I asked him why he would ask this, and he said my eyes were red and watering, as was my nose. I told him allergies, but in actuality, I had been unknowingly crying. Let me tell the story.

Today the girl I love had her car stolen. Because of a battery that is going bad, she started the car, a Lexus she had bought a month or two back and went back inside. And of course, someone hopped inside and drove off with it. She texted me and I came down to help her. Luckily with the help of the police and the Lexus app, we located it intact a block away, and I followed her back. We parked and went to her room and we hugged each other in relief and kissed, all was well. Well, not really. Let me explain.

My girl friend who is beautiful, charming and smart loves me, and I love her. I know that. But our moment ended as she told me her next customer would be there in 10 minutes. You see, she makes her living as an escort. I've mentioned this in a previous rant. And although she keeps both worlds separate, they sometimes come crashing together. I know for example that after comforting her and leaving, some guy is going to be showing up and fucking her. And with a cash flow of $1500 to $2000 a day, there are a lot of guys coming in and out to live out their fantasies. And I can't really do anything about it, nor can I unlove her. I tried my best.

So dear coworker, that is the reason for my "allergies"

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John Doe Relationships April 16, 2026 at 9:45 pm 0 1