I am a loser

My life makes me cry. I am too much of a coward to commit suicide. My life is too stressful. In my spare time, all I do is study, work out and healthy meal prep.
1. I had lost 20 kg in that past, I gained back some of it. Now I am working on bringing it down again, it is not easy. It is just the belly portion that is a problem. I spend 1.5 hours to 1 hour everyday on exercise or being active. I do not want to become plus size. I am so scared. Sometimes I starve myself.
2. I have an exam coming up. With my bad luck, I will probably fail my exam. I am studying. I keep learning, but who knows. It is all luck. I am stressed.
3. This point - I discussed with my mom and brother. There are a few men who keep messaging me on my phone and harassing me when it is obvious that I want to be distant. As if I have cheap woman written on my forehead. If I was a cheap woman, I would not be a virgin. I am polite and kind. These men take advantage of my politeness. I am not looking for anything. I want to be left alone in peace.

On the bright side, I have discovered a women's only gym and I worked out over there for two days. It was very peaceful. No judgements. Everybody was courteous. All equipment was wiped down after use. The gym was not smelling.

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You know Other July 01, 2026 at 4:32 pm 0 0