help a girl out

if someone asked me to describe myself,i wud say : worthless/failure/disappointment/useless.
thats how i have always felt
i have so much in my heart that i want to type but something in me is stopping me,
i am tired, so tired, of everything
im trying
maybe not hard enough, am i not worthy of what i dream?!
do i deserve to be constantly compared to my cousin who is smarter than me? what am i doing wrong, why does god hate me, why do i get his hardest battles
i simply cannot take a compliment, if someone calls me pretty i'd assume they were lying bcos i have absolutely no self confidence, my parents based my worth on my grades, and now that they've declined i feel worthless. i want to go to med school but i can only thru scholarship bcos i cant afford it
i dont even have the energy to cry it out.
will i ever be worthy enough of love? will i ever make my parents proud? or should i stop trying.

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vivian School April 19, 2024 at 11:06 am 0 0