goddamit why!????

Why can't anyone ever end up with the first person they fell in love with? I still have fucking dreams about the first female I was in love with. She turned out to be a shitty person, who became more shitty as time went on. Did a lot of fucking damage to me. Why couldn't she have been a nicer person? Why couldn't she and I have actually fucking worked? She actually did fucking care for me at first. Why couldn't it have been to where we could have worked, and everyone could have just had and remained with those overwhelming feelings of love? Why?!

No one really likes who they end up with later on. Most are unhappy. You just sorta feed into the idea of things being okay, and maybe if you're drunk or delusional enough, you can maybe get a fleeting feeling of affection that is like 10% of what you felt for that first person who you actually loved. It sucks and it's not real. When I think about it, it makes me think about this show I watched where some crazy woman was in love with inanimate objects. Same difference really.

It's just. I bet the world would actually be a better place if most people ended up with their one true, actual fucking love instead of just being destroyed by that person and then pretending to care about someone who they know they don't.

Why does life have to be this way?! Fuck you Santa.

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anonymous Relationships May 28, 2026 at 7:36 am 0 0