Friends

Idk why I feel this way. Maybe I am just jealous or insecure or I have an inferiority complex. I really want to work on it. I don't want to ever feel jealous of my friends because ik I care abt them alot. or maybe it's not jealousy it's just the fact that they've hurt me. And I over the time I've started disliking things about them. It's so crazy when u were there for them all the time. When they had fights with their bf, u were there to listen and comfort them. Specially when u sacrifice ur own things for them. I literally had an exam the other day. And one day before I was comforting her because she had a panic attack because of a fight with her bf. I was there to take care of her whole night sacrificing my own studies. Because that's what friends are for. When her bf didn't wanted to go in an event with her, she forced me to go with her, turns out her bf later agreed and she went with him leaving me like that. I am not jealous of her bf, but u shouldn't have used me as a backup plan just because ur bf didn't want to go and then later going with him and not caring about the plan u made with me. And when it's about financial, emotional, mental help u run to me. And one day u just cut me off and make new friends and start hanging out with them. And not communicating about why u cut me off because then u wouldn't be able to come to me for help. Idk why I am always the one who gets left like that. Am I the problem? Do I care too much? Why do I give my everything in all the relationships. People take it for granted and use me just for their benefits. and I don't wanna care about why she doin in her life. But i do care alot. It's really hurting me sm. I wish I didn't go this crazy over ppl. and I wish I didn't depend on her like this, things would have been better for sure. She barely gives a fuck about me.

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anonymous Friends July 03, 2025 at 3:18 am 0 0