Five years of my mid 20s gone

I met this girl at a miserable awkward young adult group at a church that neither of us even went to. I was by myself and of fucking course she had to have her sister there to hold her hand. It was her sister who introduced me to her. Fuck knows this girl could never do anything by herself.

Neither of us were religious. She pretended to believe but said she didn't know what to believe, and I had lost my faith from shit over time happening. I actually thought at one point what if this was fate? Yeah, and I'm King of fucking England.

I wasn't very attracted to her. She was awkward and insecure, and it felt like I was talking to a relative. There was just this awkwardness and civility that was always present.

I did however love and entertain the idea of someone liking me and being in a nice relationship for once, so I went against all instinct and kept this shit going for far too long.

She wasn't honest about things and I spun it around and did mental gymnastics to tell myself I was wrong. She was never fucking motivated. She never put effort into her appearance. I'd try to look good for her, she'd be looking like how I do when I'm off work for two days and don't bathe for one of those days. Early on she'd attempt to ask me questions, even if they almost always went back to herself. Eventually she stopped asking me things and acted bored whenever I'd speak, and we stopped talking that much. Wouldn't have been a problem if we were just dating, but by this point we had been together for two years and were living together.

I always did most of the work in the house, just like I did with the relationship itself. I'd try to be affectionate and she wouldn't care. Fucking, ugh, emotionless and we stopped that shit long ago. Birthdays and Christmases I'd put effort into getting her things I thought shed like, never got the same effort in the gift cards and $20 Walmart Axe Body Spray kits I'd get most years. She had no interests or hobbies. Just like a slug half the time.

It's now over. Her sister is holding her hand and is acting like poor baby. The bitch (my ex) doesn't fucking care. She is so unnoticed and uninterested and boring she'll never do much of anything ever. At least she's too old now for the young adult group, so she can't sucker someone else. Bitch.

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anonymous Relationships March 01, 2026 at 1:59 pm 1 0