tired of being tired p2?

i feel quite depressed. i do cousnlessing but i will never be able to talk about what i truly want to. i want to talk abt my sa and what happened to me after it. i wanna talk about how my sister gen controls this entire house and how draining it is to be here. i want to talk about how i hate how fat i am with a passion. i want to talk about how i wish i had the self control that cassie. i want to talk about how i wish i had an ed. i want to talk about how i truly feel like life is not worth living but the afterlife scares me more than this one. i want to talk about how i truly have no one to talk to. i want to talk about how everything in this life scares me: from the epstien files, elitists taunting us cause they know we cant do anything about it, the endless war that murder people every single day. i want to talk about how much i hate this dunya, how i hate lviing here, how i wish there was peace on this earth, how i wish people didn't suffer a lot. i wish i was a better person, a person who read their quran daily, a person who didn't shout at her younger brother, a person who encouraged others to be better people. i wish i was skinny.
i wish i would go to jannah. sometimes im scared that i havent chosen the right religion but i feel so at peace knowing the good parts of islam. i love having someone to rely on, someone who i can always talk to. i wish i had someone irl to talk to, not just allah. i feel like a burden. i am a sinner. i wish i was a better person. i wish my parents worried about me enough to help me get the help i need. i hate this world. i wish i had enough islamic knowledge to edcuate myself. i wish i had self control.

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anonymous Other March 01, 2026 at 4:05 pm 0 0