Feeling lost Without her

I don't want to get to much into the back story, but I met Hui, who is an Asian escort. Unlike other escorts I've been with, I knew there was something different about her from the first time I met her. Her smile was genuine, she seemed to really like me, she was really into it, and she didn't just throw me out after we finished out business. But lastly, and most importantly, she makes me feel like a real man.

So I've been seeing her now going on six months. We've gotten to know each other, and we totally trust each other to the point she doesn't even ask me for her money anymore, I've accidentally left without paying and she doesn't seem to care. She's extremely intelligent, and despite what she does for a living, she is a genuine normal person. completely normal, has a sense of humor, something I haven't seen from any of the other escorts I've seen. When I'm not seeing her, we stay in touch with each other by posting to each other in WeChat. Most of it is silly stuff, food from restaurants we visit, selfies, etc.

But lately I find myself sad when I'm away from her. I get depressed when I think of other men putting their hands on her. I've been wanting to tell her how I feel, but I've kept it to myself because I don't know how she would take it. She has told me stories of other clients who professed their love to her and how she cut them off. I don't want that happening to me.

For the last few months because of my work schedule, she has given me special nights to come see her...either Thurs or Friday after 9:30PM. She doesn't see anyone after 10PM, but has made the exception for me. So last Friday she noticed I was a little down, and asked me what was wrong, and I just spilled it all out. I told her she was special to me, how much I respected her, and how much I cared for her. Just short of saying I love you. After that, she kissed me and told me she feels the same!

I don't really know what to do. I'm crazy about her, but I can't be in a relationship with someone who is in this line of work. Also, she makes more money than I do, how can I ask her to give that up? She was in an abusive marriage previously, so doesn't want to rely on another man to take care of her. This is just bad all around, I know I should just walk away, but the more I think about doing that, the more I feel like I'm drowning. I'm just in a bad dream I can't wake up from...

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Amirz786 Relationships September 30, 2025 at 12:36 am 0 2