dementia alert

so i have this so-called friendgroup with ten people, and also in a small close circle of the group if that makes sense [four people] i'm just going to call them B, C and D for the sake of simplicity. okay i don't know about any other country but school years each have four terms, ten weeks each term. so one of the terms this year, B was my seatmate, so we kind of became friends. and so on i met her best friend C, towards the end of the term, and let me just say B and C were best friend duos. so i befriended C as well.
next term i wasn't sitting with B amymore, but I sat right behind C and diagionally across D. [i sat near D another but we've never talked alot]. and that for that whole term i hung out with B, C and D. so like, "best friends".
then the next term B started ignoring me [D too], and apparently B and C aren't best friend duos anymore, and for some reason, i was really skeptical with befriending C this whole two terms.
few weeks after B and D started talking to me and i don't know why but i just "went along" with it.
the week after that one of my friends, E, part of the friendgroup, was talking about how messed up my "close circle" was. not a shittalk, though. and i have to agree with her, honestly. so she says that C doesn't like me for being me, for some reason. like, what the fuck? i remembered her saying i'm her closest friend. i knew something was up, but still.
if you don't want to be friends with me, then just fucking spit it out.
and apparently, B didn't even know that she was avoiding me? like, i talked to her and hungout with her EVERY SINGLE DAY, FOR TWENTY WEEKS, HOW THE FUCK DOES SHE NOT KNOW THAT SHE HAS BEEN AVOIDING ME FOR OVER THIRTY DAYS??
and if D still likes me [E told me that], why would she avoid me? i've been hanging out with her for at least ten weeks.
i think my whole friendgroup was fake. like honestly, no one gives a fuck about me anymore. even other people said that they don't see me with them anymore. it was... so sudden. and they only realized that they haven't been hanging around with me after so long. B stopped talking to me because she thinks i'm mad at her, and i've been giving cold responses to her, which is true. but the fact that E told me that she doesn't really like me [and C as well], i don't see the point of me being with them, do i?
i hope this makes some sense, because i want to make this as short as possible.

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anonymous Friends November 27, 2024 at 5:37 am 0 0