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does anyone else realise they spend or waste more time talking to the air than getting anything out of some people? while i spend maybe 10 minutes at most around most peopoe cause of this exact reason i just never or rarely seem to get equal attentioj back from them in return. im going to meet a formerish friend and i still have a fear that the whole time she will spend talking about herself and i will just be listening. in fact i mostly see the back of this persons head and when they try to ask me something i want to tune out because they do it to me except i cant do it back to them cause its rude so i have to make myself answer them even if i dont want to anymore. its worse when u have to surround urself with such imbeciles.

oh yes its so fun seeing the back of someones head as they doomscroll its not alienating at all. pfft who am i kidding. it really makes me pessismistic if anything cause most people are turning out like this. i restrict my device use to my bedroom cause im a bit of a loner. theres hardly anyone who gives off warm wholesome vibes who makes you want to spend time with them if anything they want the opposite for u to leave them be and not bother them if you talk theyll either try too hard to be funny or interject with something they forgot to do. so whats the use in trying to connect with people who only want surface level minimal effort? yet i know with others they will be all gobby and no chance of them shutting up but with me its always been low effort from other people. what much else can i do about it?

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anonymous Other January 23, 2025 at 4:42 pm 0 0