Convenience Store

Will this be my role forever? To be a convenience store for someone? I don't mean to be like this, it just happens. That feeling when you get to know someone and as they get to know you deeper, they find a sense of comfort when they're with you. I have to admit, it's such a great feeling when someone considers you as their safe space, not until you sense they're only using you when things get messy on their relationship. Worse thing is that you have no idea that they already have someone else. I'm already attached before I even knew. Good thing I can take the job of being a detective, but it hurts, not physically, but emotionally and it mentally drains me. Little did I know that I'm just a convenience store for someone maybe because they find something in me that could help them escape temporarily. Just like when we go to a convenience store, we look for things that would help us make feel better. The feeling of being taken advantage of until you lose yourself, until the items inside the convenience store gets empty. Good for it can be refilled once empty, but my heart would take time to become whole again. I just want to feel seen and valued. I don't want to be someone's convenience store they could always go to whenever something happens or when they crave affection they can't get from others. Just like how the items have their each value, I wanna set a really good price for myself. A really high one that no one could ever reach unless someone is willing to climb a mountain or work twice as hard to get me. Maybe it's not about who I am for others but rather for choosing who should I be for myself. I become too available for someone that can't even be there for me. This is a good reflection of mine to not settle for less, because one day, there would be someone who won't treat you as a convenience store but rather be the convenience store for you who is always available 24/7.

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mal Relationships February 04, 2026 at 1:46 pm 0 0