Have you gotten help? I recently talked to a psychiatrist a on Sunday and got prescribed medication for the first time in my whole life. Sometimes we have normalized ruminating thoughts that feel extremely real, but it’s because we believe them too much. You are neither your negative thoughts or your positive ones. Within you exists the untainted soul that you really are and can never be hurt by anything. It is the true light within you. If you’re thinking about killing yourself, you should just try to throw the whole book at healing, you know? Dream work, shadow work, journaling, spending time offline in nature, meditation, inner child healing. Sometimes the little kid in you is just scared and you have to show them that they’re safe. It’s easier said than done, I know. It takes more effort that sometimes I’m like I’d rather die than try so hard for so little. But that’s depression speaking. Get some help, there is nothing that can’t grow from the dead fertilizer that is asking for you to let it go. You don’t need to carry so much in your subconscious. You just have to ask yourself, what is my body telling me I need right now and take it one moment at a time. Hydrate, sleep, nourish yourself. Clip your nails, get a haircut, take a shower. One step at a time , I’m rooting for you.

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Em 9 hours ago

How is eating your arms going to help?

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Chet 9 hours ago

3 years?

and I agree, how is eating your arms gonna help? You can kill yourself without arms. My plan is to just get drunk and jump off something high. Could probably really nail home how fucked up the system is jumping from an overpass or something. All those people who tell you to think happy when you're down and how things magically get better but never want to actually help experiencing the consequences of their actions first hand.

I'm thinking this weekend ngl. Why the fuck not? Can't rely on my family for a ride to work, but they expect me to get a job. Can't rely on public transport because the buses don't run 24/7, don't run the best routes to get to most job sites (it's a known issue), will happily yeet you to the other side of town and leave you stranded, and the nearest useful stop to me is 2+ miles away. I'd have to walk cause I can't rely on my family.

And apparently the issue is I'm only worried about money even though I gave them money for basic shit and told them not to fucking worry about it. THey told me they were gonna pay me back. Pay me fucking back? For what? Running their fucking 10+ year old, 100k+ mile car in the ground using my money. So I can't rely on a ride, but I can pay them to ruin their fucking shit. Then I end up stranded fucking freezing my ass off after a 12 hour shift likely without a day off in months at that point. and shits fucking funny.

fuck everyone. fuck the people who enable this bullshit and level of downright fucking stupidity. fuck the people who let employers do whatever the fuck they want regarding scheduling and straight up fucking lie during interviews just to claim ' no one wants to work'. No, people want to work the hours they're fucking capable of working. If you can't provide those hours you say "sorry" and both sides leave without anyone worse off. That's the fucking point of a fucking interview. Not to fucking lead people on with your bullshit and then wonder why they stop showing up during or after orientation.

Fuck this broken ass fucking system. I wanna get drunk and jump head first off an overpass. That or off the bridge into a river downtown known for being a problem. Isn't fucking worth this bullshit.

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anonymous 5 hours ago

Get help guys. Do not sit at home and ponder on the issues. Go to the psychiatrists to get the help you need. Hope you all get better

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Granny Fucker 3 hours ago