Being Transgender

I hate being transgender. I find it to be cringey and embarrassing. I don't understand people online who make a spectacle of it and make it their whole personalities. I hate this part of myself and I cannot understand why on earth a person would flaunt such a thing. It is embarrassing that I have to ask to be called what I want to be. It is embarrassing that I have to undergo medical treatment to feel ok in my skin. It is embarrassing that I don't know how to pick a college roommate because I'm afraid of how they will act towards my identity (I'm a trans guy, so I don't want to room with a girl especially because I will have started my medical transition, but I'm afraid that I will not be welcomed by a man). It's humiliating that on my school exchange program I have to explain to each potential exchange partner that I'm some freak of nature. Every time someone asks me my pronouns I die a little inside, I should feel respected and I do appreciate that they ask but I hate feeling like I'm forcing a person to refer to me as a way I do not look. As much as I hate it, it's true, I don't look like a guy yet. I look and sound like a teenage girl, so why should someone look at me and refer otherwise? I feel like with every person that refers to me how I want, they are just pitying me and I hate to be pitied.

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DJ Political November 12, 2024 at 7:26 pm 1 0