addiction

i think im at risk to becoming an addict. it gives me this feeling that i've never really had before, which is peace. i've been fighting with my own mind and balancing my life out for years, i almost dont know how to stop. but anytime im feeling that high, im nothing but a floating speck of dust. i think i am this way with other things though. tmi, but masturbating has been my go-to for years. before i took my first edible, which was around january, i would fight myself and try not to resort to masturbating and i never understood why until recently. anything that makes me feel good, even if its just for a couple seconds, i just love it. keep in mind, i've only taken one edible in my life and gotten drunk twice. i dont do this often, but ever since i did, its all ive been thinking about. i know its not good for me, but i genuinely cannot feel any sense of happiness without it. im just worried that this will become worse than it should be, and that i could offend/hurt the people around me.

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anonymous Body June 27, 2025 at 11:25 pm 0 0