why is everything about you??

today you were just going around everywhere there! No, the arcade! If I don't know why you are sad, fuck me! I don't care, none of my business.
WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK?? YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU'RE SAYING RIGHT NOW?
Why do you get sympathy when I throw a shoe and it hurts for like a minute but when it gets reversed oh fuck no!! NOT MY PROBLEM? YOU LACK FUCKING SYMPATHY. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU. WHY ARE YOU SO SHITTY I TRUST EVERYONE AND THEY ALWAYS LEAVE AND ABANDON ME. WHY DONT YOU CARE ABOUT ME, WHY????? I JUST WANT ATTENTION PLEASE JUST LET ME BE MYSELF FOR ONCE. I JUST WANT TO BE MYSELF. WHY DONT YOU NOTICE ME?? I KNOW IM AN ATTENTION SUCKER BUT WHY DO I DON'T GET A SINGLE OUNCE??
WHY DON'T YOU CARE ABOUT ME.
IM SO FUCKING SORRY BUT I JUST NEED SOMEONE TO CARE ABOUT ME. I CANT DEAL WITH YOU I CANT DO THIS.
WHY WHEN I STAND UP YOU'RE ALL SURPRISED??
I CARE ABOUT YOU BUT I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE.

IM SO SORRY I HIT YOU WITH A SHOE. IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT? YOU TOLD ME TO SHUT UP AND I TOLD YOU IF YOU MENTION IT I WILL THROW A SHOE STOP INTERRUPTING ME LET ME SPEAK I LIKED THAT TOPIC I HAD AN INTEREST BUT WHY DONT YOU LISTEN I REALLY WANTED TO TALK ABOUT IT AND YOU KEPT TELLING ME TO SHUT UP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP

WHY ARE YOU MAD AT ME? I JUST WANTED TO SPEAK PLEASE JUST LET ME SPEAK

im so sorry you had to read this im currently in the bathroom crying im so sorry for the swears i cant be interrupted i cant be alone i cant do that or this aaaa
i know that this sounds so pathetic im sorry.

i just want you to care about me i want someone to value me as a person.
i dont feel like anyone likes me im so sorry i tried. I tried my best im so sorry i fucked it up i hate guilt tripping but yet here i am. i feel so shitty writing this. i didnt want to hurt you i swear to fucking god but please let me exist let me speak i just want to be cared for, please. i don't know who to trust anymore i just? please i cant just.
i cant just be with someone that cares for me.
please please please i know im a shitty person but i just want to be loved. i dont deserve that but its getting really hard to trust anyone right now.
my head hurts, my eyes hurt. i promised i wouldnt cry this week. its only the first 4 days. why am i so ugly when i cry?

i dont want to hurt anyone. but i cant deal with your bullshit. i need to stand up for myself. im not repeating the past. not again.
i wont.

...thank you for reading this.

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