Why do I crush on the wildest men

So I am an 18 year old girl and I crush on the worst or least attainable men.
Starting off let’s go with the school crush.
Description: long hair, kinda tall, really catholic. Cute as shit and really sweet, but he turned out to have really fucked up views. I couldn’t see myself pursuing him after I realized he just wanted a catholic housewife to do whatever. So I let it go.
But then, of then there’s the guy slightly younger than me. Like he’s like 3 months younger or some shit. He lives far, but I genuinely think he’s attractive, but also I’m just down to be his friend cause he’s funny.
Then there’s the motherfucker that’s had me fucked up for years. So I see this dude in like 2022, he’s hot. But I think nothing of it I won’t see this man again. Then a few months later I do, and I learn his name, and age. He’s a year older than me. Tall as fuck too, but that’s beside the point. But I don’t figure I’m really gonna interact with him again, despite the fact that it’s fun to talk to him and he’s hot. THEN I DO and I’m kind of close proximity for a while. No big deal he’s hot I’ll get over it, and to which I do. I do get over it. Then a year goes by. And I see him again, damn was he this hot before? I thought so but I think age has helped him, let’s just say that. Then I start seeing him more and more cause once again, working close proximity. I also start getting to have like genuine conversation. That’s cool. Then one day I’m like “I’m over it” then I realize FUCK I’m not over it. Like I was helping with a task and had the unholiest of thoughts doing the most mundane task ever to help this mf out. So yeah.
You may go what makes man’s unattainable, well this man lives far from me. I’ll give u that and there’s another thing but it would be too revealing so yeh. I’m fucked basically

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Laylee Crushes June 26, 2024 at 1:49 am 0 0