TW: SWEAR WORDS + DEPRESSION

IM GOING FUCKING MENTAL! I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD DIE.
Sorry. Deep breaths.

I'm going through a crisis. You may think I'm overreacting since I'm still in school, but I promise you, I'm not. DO NOT FUCKING JUDGE!

I am in year 5. 11 year old? "You're too young to be here!" STFU! IM HERE TO YAP SO SHUT UP!
When I was in year 2 I had this 'friend'. she started calling me dumb and idiot and stuff. not that bad so I brushed it off. (I'm smarter than her)

year 3.
it was the year since she started abusing me. she would fucking kick me and slap me until I was about to get a bruise or start to bleed. she would leave no evidence whatsoever.
ALL of my 'friends' were on her side. They would push me off the slide. but I would be facing the opposite way. God I had to go get an x-ray because of her.

year 4
year 4 was the year I moved schools. not because I got bullied by my own 'friends' because my sister started high school. I thought I would get a fresh start.
Boy was I wrong. 1st year I was there I got fucking backstabbed. she fucking ruined me. I had ONE BESTFRIEND FROM MY LAST SCHOOL AND SHE TRIED BREAKING THE VERY THING SHE GAVE ME! ONE OF THE LAST THINGS I HAD OF HER!

Obviously I started sobbing and she got in trouble, but nothing major happened. I was fucking ruined.

this year. (year 5)
I thought this girl was my friend. she became obsessive and then started copying my work. she says whatever and bullshit like that. I was going fucking insane. Just 3 days ago I had a mental breakdown. I was sobbing my fucking heart out. nothing changed.

I have to live through the pressure of my parents. I don't get why God would do this to me. maybe because I swear but fuck, I don't think its that big of a deal. I just feel like I should die.

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Tisa School May 08, 2025 at 5:36 am 2 0