ts getting difficult

Lowkey where do I even begin. This is my first relationship right, I'm 15 and my boyfriend is 16, and we've been dating for close to 6 months now. He's a great guy, but it's not him that's the issue, he's not being a dick or controlling or anything bad, it's his family. His parent's are really controlling and abusive, and I'm helping pick up the pieces and put him back together but it's like everytime he comes back hes js broken again. Few months ago, I went to a small air show/craft faire thing because he was helping his mom with her thing, so after they finished I just went back home with them, had dinner, and my bf and I went to his room to watch some tv. We were cuddling with a blanket on top bc it was cold, and once his mom dropped me off his parents berated him and accused us of screwing (my ass was half asleep bro and I ain't doin that with a man ive dated for 2 months and a wide open door). Skip to a month or so ago, late October I believe, his mom put her hands around his neck and when he pushed her off she kicked him out of the house. He ended up staying in a holding place that was half detention center half homeless camp for youth for a few days and then his grandma (mother's side) picked him up and he was there for 2 weeks I believe until he went back home. His dad ended up asking if he wanted to stay with his other grandma and uncle (whom live tg and in the same city as us) andhe agreed. Things were going quite well for him, he had a job, a computer and phone, privacy, less responsibilities and was able to live more like an adult. Come Thanksgiving, his grandma doesn't want him there, but won't say why. His uncle has him stay anyway, and then something goes down and he goes back to his parents. He takes his phone with him secretly because I'm basically his life line and have been, and he's talking about how he wants to kill himself so badly, and that he just might - he had letters written out too so why the actual FUCK are we sending him back to that hell hole?? Anyways, everything is a little rocky, he's really tense and whatnot (obviously) and not even 2 weeks in of him being back his father chokes him to where he passes out. Now when my bf told me this back at school because said father found the phone and broke it, I got pissed off because he keeps brushing everything off and being like "oh it's wtv, I can't really do anything" MY LOVE YES YOU CAN. I know you hate the cops and we both know how cps doesn't do shit, but you need to do something. So now, fast forwarding to this week, it's the last week of school before finals, and his parents are talking of putting him up for adoption over winter break. If they do this, he will be sent to an orphanage up north that is out of state, and he has to leave everything behind. However, he gets away from all of that and has the ability to be with a family who truly cares and wants the best for him. Another problem with this though is his age. Most adoptive parents want to adopt young children, not 16-17 year old boys with troubled pasts. And since I'm the reason why he's kept trucking this long, who knows how harsh it will be for him to not be able to lean on me and have me there to personally be by his side? My opinion is yes, he should agree to be put up for adoption if they are truly considering it because that will give him the best opportunity of a better life. Yes, it's going to suck alot not being able to hug and kiss and everything, but if he leaves now, that's only a year and a half apart. I'm okay with long distance, I just worry for his sake. Now don't get me wrong i have alot of shit with my mother (m and f are divorced, have been for 12 years. F owns own home and has wife, m lives with gparents) and it is taking a big ol toll on me as well, i was recommended by my doctor for therapy but i cant talk to people abt my problems - hence why i'm here. I have wanted to end my suffering so many times but I havent because of this man, and even though I'm petty and retarded, that wouldn't be fair even if she has made me depressed and suicidal and I resent her for many different reasons. I try to ignore all the bad thats happening and focus on the good, like writing letters to my bf bc he doesnt have any technology, but at nights it gets to me. And I'm expected to have fantastic grades with honors classes on top of all of the things that keep piling up? And my stepmom getting on my ass for being distant and whatnot (now shes pregnant so once the child is born im gonna have to basically be a mother). Anyways, I have finals i need to study for and I feel like I want to cry but I can't because there's nothing to give yk, so this is where I'll leave off. If you read this and got all the way down here, luv u twin, don't give up, people are assholes but u js gotta accept it and move on, and if your boss is pissing u off print a picture of his face and put it on a bag at ur local boxing gym. Hope you have a better day twinalicious.

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anonymous Relationships December 14, 2025 at 1:47 am 0 0