Tired of my Fat lazy self.

I am so sick of being Fat. I lost 4 stone before but gave up at the 4 stone mark due to being so hungry and frustrated.

When ever I start losing weight I get the WORST heart burn, It ends up feeling like my heart is Thuding but ECG's Show nothing. I'm on strong heart burn meds.

I have 0 energy to do anything but cry and doom scroll and my partner doesn't help by being the same. He eats so much sugar and is borderline diabetic. Go out for walking dates? Nah he doesn't want to get dressed again.

I can not keep trying and keep failing again and again its driving me mad, I just don't want to be in this drained sore body anymore.

but I am already defeated, I know I will fail so why even try again.

Sometimes I want someone to take away all the control but I know that will not happen and is lazy.

idk just defeated.

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Fattilldeath Body July 30, 2024 at 6:42 am 2 0