Tired of it all

So not that it isnt hard enough already trying to break an act as a new singer on the local circuit. Sometimes i feel like its pulling teeth and despite my efforts of learning new songs every week entering competitions and trying to get my name out there and having very little good coming back from it. My mothers boyfriend was considering asking about getting me a gig at their local bowling club for an afternoon barbeque. My mother then went above my head and behind my back without so much of even talking to me first and said it would be the wrong enviroment for me and talked her partner out of getting me this gig. I asked her why and she said it was because it was going to be a very quiet event and not that many people there so she didnt want me to look a fool if i didnt have much of an audience to perform to. but it would have given the people who own the club a chance to hear me sing and could have led to other things. it would have been £100 in my pocket. Clearly she doesnt support me because anyone who did would have encouraged the situation. Plus i am just getting sick and tired of general shit. Im just sick of peoples low opinions of me and it doesnt help that people have already made up their minds before i have really even ever been given a chance. Im just sick and tired whats the point of all this. That was just the cherry on top of a lifetime of continual bad luck and dissapointments. It would really help if family actually didnt have such low opinions of me and actually started believing in my capabilities for a change and actually tried showing me some actual support and moral respect. Honestly i have enough of my own inner demons to fight i dont need all the extra bullshit. Just want that one person to actually see me and give me a chance and i get its a competitive industry and there are a lot of good acts out there but i really could have done without people working against me on top of all this when all i do is try.

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Annoynmous Other September 08, 2025 at 6:33 pm 0 0