Tired of Feeling Numb

Hggggghggegegwvsjs fuck.

I'm fucking tired of feeling like this. I'm one straw away from breaking and it's eating at me.

I wish I had someone for myself, a friend, someone, anything.

But I can not connect to anyone. Everyone is just a blank face. I must smile, and wave. I must sympathize and somehow create a conversation. You have to say hello, make small talk. You have to be able to hold a conversation, or you are the weird one, the quiet one.

So I don't have anyone. I don't like to talk to people, I don't enjoy conversation, or banter or anything. I feel so detached and I've always been like this, even as a child. I might have thought I was asocial, but I still yearn for connection?

I don't know, I feel like I am broken inside, but I've put up all these walls and I'm not able to show anyone who I really am. I don't even know who I really am. Fffff

I hate being so sensitive but closed off. I don't know why I my brain chemistry is different from others'

I'm just a broken person

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anonymous Home June 11, 2026 at 12:23 am 1 0