there is something wrong with me but idk what

I just typed out a whole fucking paragraph of my problems and this fuckass website decided to delete it. This is my thirteenth reason.

I am 99% sure I have ADHD and OCD. I've got all the symptoms. I've read stories, articles (posted by PROFESSIONALS) and resonate with all of them.
I'm struggling so much in school right now. Can't focus, grades are slipping, no motivation ro ANYTHING. I go home and watch tiktok for 4 hours because im too fucking incompetent to get off my ass and get changed. I feel sick constantly.
And to top it off, I know if I asked my mum for a diagnosis or an appointment or ANYTHING to help she'd just say something like "you don't have adhd/depression/ocd that's what all the kids say these days" no mum i tried to kill myself when i was 12 im not ok. please fucking help your kid like you're supposed to.

Like there HAS to be a reason i'm the way I am?!! a medical reason?? like please someone tell me i'm right here, i really can't keep going like this. im in year 10 (15 atm) and if i dont get diagnosed or get some help my life is gonna be a living fucking hell (it already is but year 12 is going to eat me alive.) I need there to be an actual reason for me struggling so bad. I can't just be dumb and ugly lazy like there has to be something wrong me?

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anonymous Home June 04, 2025 at 10:09 pm 1 0