i cant ever get over this

OKAY so for context, i used to go to dance from preschool to 8th grade at a christian dance studio because i loved dancing ofc. people were assholes for no reason to me there and would avoid me at all costs, i don't understand why they did that, but they did. literally one time i was sitting outside of class waiting for it to start and these two girls asked me a question, and like any normal person would, i answered it. and then they just started laughing and were like "she's so creepy!" WHAT..? so yeah that was the general vibe there, i didn't leave for so long just cuz i still had a genuine passion for dancing and didn't know where else to go despite there being multiple dance studios other than that one in my town.

timeskip to today, i'm in highschool and love cheerleading with my bsfs. one of them and i even go to dance at a different studio with one of them and i feel 10x more welcome there. this girl who went to the christian dance studio made the team and i was already iffy about her attending the highschool because i live in a small town and there's many other highschools that are so much better around here. ours are full of nerds (no shade, i'm a nerd myself) and it's super small school.

today at practice, i was chilling since we had a break and one of my bsfs opened the notes app and was like "dude that girl over there is lowkey being so annoying" and i knew exactly who she was talking about so i opened my own notes app and was like "I HATE HER, SHE WAS SO MEAN TO ME AT DANCE" timeskip to the end of practice, the coach mentions how she doesn't tolerate bullying and knows when it happens, which ofc i agree with that. but i feel like if she found out about how much i hate that girl, she'd think i'm a bully which i'm not, SHE was the bully.

i'm so pissed about this for no reason, like all this stuff from years ago is just coming up and i couldn't ever bring myself to forgive any of those girls in the dance studio, even if it was elementary-middle school bullying. idgaf, i won't ever be the bigger person in this situation because they should've been the bigger people in the first place and tried being nicer like god always wanted them to. i swear, sometimes religious ppl don't ever practice what they preach and it pisses me off. i'm 9 times out of 10 mostly likely just extra pissed about it because i'm on my period and need to scream or whatever, but you know

if someone from irl found this and somehow knows who i am, you didn't see shit <3

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anonymous School June 05, 2025 at 8:35 pm 0 0