the war with humans

Yes that's right I have all the qualities women often describe as undesirable, old bald not very smart and they're right, just like men describe the stereotypical qualities of undesirable women. I've never been into the whole human being thing, can't connect with the typical bullshit seen in the school environment, sports, work, etc. I didn't want any part of it, I would just as soon crawl under a rock and stay there until I was out on my own but once that happened not much changed. Yes, when younger I was a loner and still am, now I'm over 60. I've been through cancer, heart bypass surgery with nobody except the medical people. They don't give a rats ass. Sure some of them are friendly; others make it clear I could code out and no shits given by them. I'm getting old, nobody cares, that situation will not improve. When I was young I had no interest in interacting with old people so I get it.

I'm in the suburbs, what a nightmare. If one has a problem with human nature and understanding people in general,. it will be worse in the suburbs. No individuality whatsoever, as a matter of fact, due to social media, individuality in our culture seems to be going away quick. Some influencer starts every sentence with "So" and everybody starts doing it.. Somebody starts wearing pajamas in public, like Lemmings, they all do it.

I'm now fortunate I can hide and hide I do, it's still a miserable life but not as bad as going to work everyday dealing with awful people wearing masquerade masks. Not as bad as dealing with the clicks of school or the rejection of women. The condescension, I still receive it, in all honestly I would like to blow them up with a 12 gauge... sometimes I fight back, other times I let it go because really, at the end of the day it doesn't matter.

The problem becomes, what does matter? That's the hard question.

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Tony Relationships January 27, 2026 at 10:02 pm 0 0