Suffocated

This loneliness suffocates me and i have lost the purpose or meaning for me to live and i have felt like this for 4 years and i cant keep on repeating the same shit and saying the same things and losing my head over this. I have made poor decisions and sabotaged and pushed people away and i have lost all reasons why. Im sick of fucking hating who i am, and i just want to stop thinking about this. I went out with a friend once in the past couple of months and people do not value me at all. When i try to focus on myself all i still feel is this empty ache and it never goes away. I neglect caring and i dont think i will ever be happy. I am meant to be miserable, no matter what circumstance its just who i am and i am done convincing myself im not. I have thoughts of killing myself everyday and i don't see a future where i dont fuck up

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anonymous Other August 02, 2026 at 9:26 pm 1 0