She doesn't deserve happiness

I was a very stunted and broken person growing up. This girl strang me along and pretended to care. All to keep me as a backup option. I had nothing that she did. I didn't even get to have a life. She did.

What she did was terrible on its own. But it's even worse given how fucked up I was from how horrible my life was of being so unloved and isolated. Her pretending to care only caused me damage and fears that took decades to overcome. Damage on top of the damage that was already there. And at one time I saw me being in love with her as some sort of saving grace.

She is now out of shape. Alcoholic. And has been divorced and remarried and I'm sure is going to get married a couple more times before becoming a total fat scarecrow. Good.

She isn't happy. She doesn't deserve to be. She can sit there and get drunk all the time and cry to herself about how at one point she was objectively beautiful and had men chasing her, and now she looks as ugly outside as she is inside, and only the wormiest of losers want to chase her for some Arby's rancid roast beef.

The heartbreak from this destroyed me. This was not some teenage infatuation. This was fucking crushing to someone who was as broken and unloved as me. I basically got pushed and manipulated so many times that I had to step away and it was the hardest thing I had ever done.

Anyone who wants to say how pathetic this is, is either some milk toast loser who married young. Or someone who just also doesn't get it.

Someone does something horrible and isn't even fucking sorry. You can laugh at how badly they are doing and believe they don't deserve good things, especially after what they've done to you.

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anonymous Relationships February 20, 2026 at 3:58 am 0 1