Scholar suffering

I do everything I can to stay and to continue this study. Almost everyday I don't get enough sleep or just having 2-4 hours sleep and worse not getting sleep at all most of the time. My program as a college student was so draining, its draining my energy, health, social life and money. Most of the time there is moment where even my body can't no longer take the heavy workload, can't no longer bear the tiredness but I still want to fight. I force myself to stand up, to wake up just so I can do my responsibility as a scholar student to my scholarship. But why am I deprived of benefiting from my sacrifices? My scholarship allowance should only be an extra money for my studies yet my situation feel ashamed. Because my allowance is used to pay parents debt, used as a resource for everyday life. But what about my necessity? Can't I spoil myself for the suffering that I feel? No . Cause they makes me feel that I don't deserve to be happy. That I can't choose to choose myself and my desire

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Fading Moon School March 18, 2026 at 4:02 am 0 0