PTSD

I still wake up at 2:45 a.m. or 3 a.m. My PTSD is not gone. I need to go back to therapy.
On the bright side, I did not get Raped in my private areas. I was physically and sexually assaulted by different people, but I was not raped. Disgusting and lecherous verbal assault (mostly sexual in nature) was to a much higher degree. It happened in 2010-2011 and continued later. I am not able to forget. People know where I live. It is scary.
This is one of the reasons, I am not able to get married. I have been through so much that it is difficult to move on. But I have to move on, I have to get my sleep back.
I spend most of the days okay, but once in a while the memories come back with a bang and I freeze.

Again, try to think of the bright side: I was not raped. I was not raped. I was not raped. I was able to protect myself from rape.
I will not go into details. I do not want to embarrass anybody because these people have families too.

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Suzzie Other October 30, 2025 at 11:15 pm 0 0