oh this isnt a rant lol

this isn't a rant at all, well unless i have the definition of rant wrong because i have defined it in my head as a NEGATIVE run on something and i can't be bothered to google the definition right now but i'll definitely keep that in mind because i can't let myself not know the definition.

anyway, i love him so much. this man has given me a completely new point of view on love. after my first love, i genuinely thought i couldn't love someone that much again. i was heartbroken, it took me a long time to get over it. it was 5 years. we were so incredibly toxic to each other by the end and i felt it was a trauma bond but the beginning was such raw love. i thought after him i was just doomed to never feeling that level of passion for someone again. i was wrong.

this man now exceeds all the chickflick men and i can't believe he's real. he's so awkward and tries so hard. he casually drops the most romantic lines i've ever heard 20 times a day. i genuinely can't believe it. he takes care of me in every way and is so patient. he never sees me as a chore. he prioritises me and actively shows how much he cares. he assures me without me ever needing to ask. i feel so much comfort with him. i feel the best when i'm with him. he encourages me to be a better person and he isn't a pushover. he's careful with me. i'm not gonna lie, i didn't take him seriously talking to him at first. i thought it was just another guy to waste my time on, now i get giddy when he replies. i feel like a teenager again. this is a bit dramatic considering i'm 21. he knows the right things to say. i am so happy. i get nervous around someone again. he values me and i him. i really didn't think this was possible again. im in awe.

and im being really careful with him because i'm his first for everything. i feel so lucky and blessed to have met him, i can't believe he fell for me too. i don't want to do anything wrong. i really feel something serious again. it feels so nice. i really could cry rn but i wont cus im not a pussy ass bitch. god give me the strength to not mess this relationship up, i hope we stay together. i've never met someone i've been so in sync with. i'm sleepy now, bye rant.

rant
/rant/
verb
speak or shout at length in an angry, impassioned way.
"she was still ranting on about the unfairness of it all"


oh lol fair enough i guess i'm not angry so this isn't a rant.
and ffs i need to google what impassioned means. i'm an idiot.

impassioned
/ɪmˈpaʃ(ə)nd/
adjective
filled with or showing great emotion.
"she made an impassioned plea for help"

ahh.

anyway i love him sm that's all bye mwah

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shhncls Dating August 12, 2022 at 7:51 pm 2 0