Not really a rant, but…

I want to keep this anonymous so the people who know me won’t ever see this.


I’ve been thinking about a lot of things lately like death. My parents were religious growing up so I may know about the religion, the beliefs, the practices, but it’s not something that stuck me permanently. As a kid I use to fear the idea of hell and demons, but as an adult, the more life weighs down on me, the more I noticed how much death seemed like a more peaceful option.

I’m just a human. I don’t know if there’s an afterlife or if death is like going to sleep forever, but as I grow older, I don’t know why but that’s how I see death as. I’m convinced it’s like eternal sleep and to me, that sounds a lot nicer than whatever the hell is going on with my life.

I’m not saying I’m suicidal or anything. I still have lots of years of my life to live and to see where I can go from here, but I think if I were to die soon, I would be okay. I’ve grown up and I don’t really see it as something to be afraid of anymore. If anything I think I might look forward to it.
But we’ll see. Life has been rough for a very long time. Hopefully things will get better, but if it doesn’t, I think I can happily say that I’ll at least have death to look forward to. I’m glad I’m not afraid of it anymore.


Cheers to you for reading this. Have a good night.

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a homebody Other February 05, 2026 at 1:01 am 0 0